which way is wonderland?

I wonder if you’ll one day remember my tumblr username and read through all of these posts and realise that they are all (mostly) about you. I wonder when that will be, a few years down the line, or tomorrow maybe…I wonder what you’ll think. I know you already know that i’m pretty insane, so perhaps this won’t surprise you. Infact it will probably make you angry, you’ll say I shouldn’t be feeling any of this because I’m the one who made this decision. But you’re the one who made the latest decision, you’re the one who said no when I was so hoping for a yes. You’re the only one who doesn’t want any of this back. I just hope you know how much I loved you. How much I still love you. How much I still want to get back together. It’s true that you never know what you’ve got till its gone. And that the bad times make the good times so much better. I just wish i’d found you when I was older, so that I would of appreciated you more. So that I would never have pushed you away. So that we could have been together forever. But now all that is gone, and your heart has mended and you couldn’t care less about me. So for the last time, if you ever read this, just know that I will love you forever & always. 

913 days of us 

913 days of us